Thank you all so much for all the support and encouragement on my last post. I’ve given the blog a new title and a pretty new look which will help make the transition to a less running-focused blog. I’m excited to still keep up the blog and keep sharing my adventures with you all.
I don’t know exactly how this is going to work- I still have so much to report and talk about but I don’t want to feel obligated to keep a detailed record of all my activities. So I’ll be leaving out a bunch of stuff… it’s weird! But that is the point. It’s kind of an experiment.
The goal is to allow myself to remove myself from the pressure of big goals and the competition I impose on myself. I want to experience things without stressing about the stats, the rankings, the feedback. In addition to not blogging about all my training, I’m not even “training.” I’m not running any big races this summer or fall. I’m just going with the flow and doing what I want.
So far, it is great! Here’s a quick list of cool stuff I’ve done lately:
- Big ol’ bike event called the Petal Pedal with Alisa a couple weeks ago. It was super hard but so fun!
- Yoga! Lots. Love! I am participating in a “Yogathon” fundraiser which I will post more about in the future (I don’t quite have my donation page set up yet).
- Running- I’ve been running pretty regularly, I’ve gone with Zach a few times and that is great. We went for a crazy trail run last night from Washington Park all the way up to Council Crest. It was amazing!
- Mountain biking up in Forest Park last week and we’re going again this week.
- Hiked up near Mt St Helens a couple weeks ago. We’re planning more hikes and backpacking and camping.
I’ve been busy with social stuff too- we had a big birthday party at our house for Deana’s 30th last weekend and it was amazing. It was great to have a big celebration for such a wonderful girl. This coming weekend my parents and brother and sister-in-law are coming into town and we’re all heading out to the coast for a few days. It will be wonderful to spend some quality time together as a family! We all really need this. I’m hoping to make it an annual tradition.
So I’m not sticking to a schedule, but it’s more than that. I’m giving myself a chance to maybe find an identity beyond just “runner.” Don’t get me wrong, I love being a runner and I’m very very proud of that. But I know I’m more than that, I’m just not exactly sure what. I am trying to figure that out. Is there room in my life for more? And when it comes to running, I’m interested to discover what the activity means to me if I don’t get the constant gratification of nailing tough workouts or finishing big races. How important has that been to me? Can I just let it go? We’ll see.
One last thing. In yoga tonight, the instructor said something that really stuck with me. Something that is very helpful to life outside of the studio. Of course, this happens a lot. Today, she told us to “notice what happens” when we made a small adjustment in some pose. Make a change, and then just observe the effect. That is what I’m doing now.
Notice what happens when you stop caring what people think.
Notice what happens when you accept yourself exactly as you are.
Notice what happens when you let your path unfold before you.
Notice what happens when you let go.
Breathe, open your heart, and notice what happens.